心，好痛好痛。。
跟你提出了分手
心里却是使不得你
我依然还爱着你。

when i saw your red teary eyes,
it pained me to the point I started crying
it gave me hope, that you still love me
you mentioned before,you had only cried once in breakup
that means this is the second time you cried in breakup
can i assumed that you loved me dearly?
and does not want to lose me?

i'll be waiting for you to chase me back my darling..
Don't let me wait too long okay?
I'm very impatient.=)

Incase you wondered why I initiated a break up
because i could not accept your "help out" reason anymore
you sms me a sad face when im considering whether to HELP to sub zhili not
she wanted to go to halloween party on saturday night
but since i rejected her, she could not go

couldnt you rejected them as well?
I had alrdy took a step back for you to work night shift for how many days as you pleased( incase you dont know)
And i had stop making a fuss about it anymore
couldnt you at least go out with me the whole day for once in a week?
is THAT too much to ask from you?

and mind you.
morning period- you went out with your parent
I finally accept it as a fact.
so, i choose to sleep late
to avoid reality for awhile and forget about it gradually

CANT you give your afternoon time and evening time for me???
like for a day in a week?
its that selfish of me to ask from you?
all i wanted its your accompany and you cant even give me that simple request?

you said, just to help out?
where are the full timer?
arent any other part timer around other than you to ask from?
lwin? kwaymin?
if lwin are not working
i guess he is accompany GWEN for a day
why?
gwen only got 1 off day in a week
i dont think is selfish for her to ask for a day of accompany from lwin.
if lwin is working, i guess gwen is okay with it. I GUESS
but , im not.

1 day per week is definately sound reasonable to me.

17/10/2010, sunday
i feel so alone and vulnerable now.